INSIDE OUT

JANUARY 2019

Like awkwardly putting a shirt on inside-out, January unravels somewhat inverted. The sequence of eclipses this month first exposes a NEW cycle (January 6th) before finding closure with the OLD (January 20th). The new cycle (Capricorn/Cancer) is laden with duty, logic and the search for security, asking us to clarify our goals for our long term mastery. The old cycle (Leo/Aquarius, since Feb 2017) is supercharged with ego and has been measuring our courage and ability to gain attention for our bizarre talents. In this Father vs. Kid Brother sequence, we first sober up to a more serious, structured side of ourselves before completing the leftover lessons from our more playful striving to be seen.

NIGHT FORCE

DECEMBER 2018

This month we experience the darkest, longest night of the year. The December solstice puts the Sun's daily motion at an extreme night force standstill. Though, we must not equate darkness with distress. Within the sleepy shadows, we rejoice in the possibilities ahead. We tighten one eye shut for our fantasy of "what if" and focus one eye open, targeting "what is."
Consider your wildest dreams, inspirations, most expanded version of yourself - in the dimness we take delight, pull back, point and shoot. 

YOUR LIFE IS ENORMOUS

NOVEMBER 2018

We all endured an extreme style of exercise from November 6-17, quick pivots, moving objects  ~ all at once the playing field repainted. As the limitations and topics from the past six months burn away, we rest in a Mercury retrograde season ~ slowing down our pathways of communication, we enter the maze of our own thoughts. Since Mercury treads backwards in the sign of the storyteller, Sagittarius ~ this retrograde helps us notice the story we tell ourselves. Does your inner-dialogue energize or enervate. Scan your mental chatter and ask yourself, is this real? Probably not. Be curious about your embellished interpretations.  We'll all strike gold in the end, with the planet of abundance, JUPITER now residing in Sagittarius (its own sign) for the next year. Though, its indications may not be immediately apparent. Jupiter is currently hip to hip with the blinding rays of the Sun, and thus invisible in the sky. Similar to a new moon, slowly becoming a crescent, it will enter a purification process before slowly gaining its vigor. Prepare for this gilded journey, patiently awaiting the shape of our bounty, gradually growing enormous.

FEMME FATALE

OCTOBER 2018

With our fur coat, black stockings, long cigarette and casual gun, we are passionate yet destructive ~ empowered yet marred by emotional depth. The planet of love *Venus* continues a retro-retreat into the the most intense sign of the zodiac *Scorpio*
Scorpio's spectrum of feelings contains only extremes. Mix this energy with the backwards moving planet of relationships, and we find ourselves treading through the haunted hallways of shared resources...shared beds....the ghouls of forgotten feelings, old fears, past hurts, jealousy, betrayal, obsession. When considering this darker side of our passionate entanglements we begin to wonder: Is there something we depend on from others that we now must satisfy for ourselves? This month we acknowledge the dose of femme fatale in us all. The dangerously magical and uncompromising yin energy. We yield only to our deep-felt needs and desires and bind ourselves only to those who can handle it !

MIDDLEMOST

SEPTEMBER 2018

Today the sun hits the earth in a way that 
perfectly balances the amount of night and day force.
Likewise, Venus slows down for retrograde Oct 5th as Mars is coming out of retrograde, gaining momentum forward. 
We take on this swaying, one forth and one back in a switching dance step. Deciding now, do I coordinate my dancing with others? Or is it individual dancing alone?  Perhaps we can be in a group of people dancing alone in a coordinated way. 
Like hands rubbing together or water slowing down a boat, the bits of one thing catches onto another, both trying hard to keep moving in their chosen direction. 

SOMEHOW 

AUGUST 2018

With Mercury now direct (and Mars soon, too) we simmer into the second half of this month with a post-crisis sigh, sob, gasp of relief. August 11th completed this summer's eclipse season. It also happened to be the last Leo eclipse in a series that started February 2017. Since then, prominent doses of events have unfolded, creating more and more distance from who we used to be. Grappling with the animal of our egos, we discover whether or not the way we are seen matches the way we see ourselves. We carve away what's not necessary in bridging this gap, letting go of the incongruencies, the people, places and performance flops ~ we open the curtain to this new unusual creature - pleased by an audience only noticing in us that which reflects parts of themselves.  

ECLIPSE SEASON

JULY 2018

Still, we are stewing in Mars retrograde - spinning in place like steam turbines we feel the wafts of old anger, desire and aggression emerge from our underground vaults.

On July 27th, Mars is affixed to a Total Lunar Eclipse configured like a gourmet knife drawer. This is also the midpoint period of Mars retrograde cycle, where the swollen red planet will be close enough in orbit to reach out and pinch. We must have the courage to look inside and notice what outworn heating system is (apparently) still in use.

SOLSTICE

JUNE 2018

A LONG DAY to re-asses goals for moving forward while maybe, moving backwards.
Mars retrogrades next week, giving our inner soldier access to a new vision of success, but only after turning inward, rewinding, listening, rewinding again. 

WOAH

MAY 2018

Yesterday, the planet of sudden change entered a sign that immovably resists change. It will reside there (roughly) for a seven year sojourn. 
Expect a series of shake ups to your status-quo-business-as-usual-refusal-to-budge, budgeting now with new money, new food, new plots of land, well built tables turning, tipping-tilting, we place our hands on it and wait for rotations ~ ~ relentless surprises will demand your flexibility around material comfort. Trust all instincts for reformation -- beyond the quake is enormous freedom. 

CLAW-LIKE DEVICE

APRIL 2018

Pushing large quantities of commitments, rubble and other substantial material - make sure to equip yourself with a claw-like device. Its been prickly, but with your powerful earth-moving equipment - you can build the road towards whatever unusual thing is important to you, your time and resources. 

GROW

APRIL 2018

Before stepping out onto the path you are paving, make sure the cement is dry! Lots of impulse and ambition, lots of kicking through doors - hinges off. Though you must PACE YOURSELF, taking action before things are in order will turn doors into brick walls. Be patient, take breaks or find a good podiatrist (because you just tried kicking through a brick wall). The risk here is...exhaustion.

WHY?

FEBRAUARY 2018

Strike your pose with time for probiotics: shine, digest, shine, reform, and if it helps: follow your dreams, and if it doesn't help: Why?  Settle in with selfless love, sacrificial in nature, peace, quiet, birds, bathing and maybe some dessert.

THREE YEAR PLAN

JANUARY 2018

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